What Was I Talking About?

Okay, so this weekend I was set for a well-needed rest but I really didn't get the well-needed rest because I stayed up till seven in the morning with some other students drinking the wine that was reserved for Gay Talese, cause he's speaking here tonight, I don't know why but I preferred to think that I was drinking Nan Talese's wine cause she's here too (thanks, Nan), and then I went out Saturday night with three high school buddies that I had not seen since high school and one of them gave me four cd's from his band Lungfish and we hung out and I did something I haven't done since not long after high school and I thought how weird is that some people never change and they may have thought that of me, too, but then I remembered why I don't do what I hadn't done since high school and basically stared at the ceiling while they said "remember that time" and laughed while I grunted in response.


So what else can I do to change my life, I keep hearing myself say, cause I sold my insurance agency cause I didn't like it really and I'm getting divorced even though I like her just fine, but we really should split up cause it's for the best, but now I have to sell my house and I'm starting graduate school (I think I mentioned that) but what else can I change in my life...oh yeah I could start doing something I haven't done since almost high school but I really don't like the effect it has on me.

So I'm over at this guy's house right and he's playing a video of his band Lungfish playing in Japan last year and this song comes on and the guitar part is this distorted, droning, sonorous, pulsing thing and I can feel the waves of it washing through my brain and I remember why I stopped doing this right after high school.

Tomorrow all these people that I respect and who are like, you know, really good writers and shit, well they're going to evaluate a piece of my writing and it's like really personal stuff and with all these images of sex and abuse and other stuff that I haven't done since almost high school and they are going to evaluate it and they are like really good writers and shit and I'm kind of freaking out about it.

What was I talking about?

Oh, yeah Lungfish I really recommend their cd Feral Hymns God it's fucking good but it's making me a little paranoid.

What was I talking about?